Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in eme_thyst's LiveJournal:

Saturday, November 11th, 2006
2:20 pm	Kimi Dake Wo... Atasahi Dake Wo... I've been hooked by another anime again X3 This time, its genre is love and drama (it's the most common, right?). I dunno what it is that attracted me to the genre but so far, I like the storyline and the characters. Plus, this is the only anime I've encountered that I can really relate to. It's real special to me.... *smiles lightly* Oh.. The anime's title is "Bokura Ga Ita". Some of you may have heard its title because of affiliations from Animesuki and Fansub. About the title of this entry, it means "Only You... Only Me.."; a portion of the lyrics of the OP song, entitled the same. Nonetheless, I'm still updated with the other animes like D. Gray Man and Death Note. Oh, for the Death Note fans out there, episode 6 is up by Live-evil so you might want to catch it while the torrent lasts. That's it for today! I gotta do my accounting and math homework *_* ~Kimi Dake Wo... Atashi Dake Wo...~ Teehee! ^^ Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Only You... Only Me... - Bokura Ga Ita (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 2nd, 2006
2:31 pm	Degrading myself... This is simply the most depressing day I've had in my entire life other than having break-ups or anything about human relationships or schooling... Y'see, I've encountered something today on the net. Usually lurking on CWF, I've taken again another look on woof-chan's fan-art thread since it had the marked updated. Then scrolling around, there was this message from a co-member of the forum. She said that woof-chan's drawings are perfect but the main artist declined and pointed out a link instead. She explained that there was this one member of another forum she frequented that showed more talent than she was. Piqued by the anxiety, I took a quick look at it. It was then that I learned that she was right... http://tenshi.yume-no-hana.net/index.php?PHPSESSID=1be051f3c7706d5691a5a3b4789f64c5&topic=27.45 ^ Take a look at YnH's thread about Kiramiki's art and you'll know for sure what I'm talking about. At some cases, I feel challenged by other people's art but in this case, it backfired. The strokes of the lines, the cleanliness of the art, the swell texture of the objects, the expressiveness of the outcome... It's all in there. And as a fellow artist, I like.. No.. I LOVE how she draws but sadly, seeing all her marvelous drawings makes me degraded myself. I'm trying to control myself not to but this was not simple. I've completely compared my own art to hers and it occured to me that I know nothing about art. It's like my works are all plain crappy. In fact, I feel that I have no chance of winning if ever I competed with her. I dunno about other people's opinions regarding this but being an artist and seeing other people's artworks greater than yours is like your inner self being crushed by the opponent's guts; like losing you self-esteem... I don't feel like drawing with effort anymore.... ._. Current Mood: Simply degraded Current Music: Hunter X Hunter - Popcorn (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 24th, 2006
1:34 pm	._. Wow... It's been a *ehem* long time since I've logged on the internet. Truly, I've missed out a lot of things, especially updates... -_- Well, that's the end of my rambling for today, minna. Ja matta! Going to finish a certain reaction paper... *fleets off* Current Mood: -_______________- Current Music: Hunter X Hunter - GI Final (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 29th, 2006
10:13 pm	Birth Date Your Birthdate: November 29 You have the mind of an artist, even if you haven't developed the talent yet. Expressive and aware, you enjoy finding new ways to share your feelings. You often feel like you don't fit in - especially in traditional environments. You have big dreams. The problem is putting those dreams into action. Your strength: Your vivid imagination Your weakness: Fear of failure Your power color: Coral Your power symbol: Oval Your power month: November What Does Your Birth Date Mean? Suits me well.. All of it ^^" Note: I'm double-posting! yay! ^o^ Current Mood: yet troubled... Current Music: Caged Bird - DNAngel (3 Comments |Comment on this)
7:10 pm	Crappy-ness.. and Reunion Yesterday, I wasn't able to use the computer for important reasons. Let's just say that I memorized the whole piece in one night and then the next day, when I was expecting wholeheartedly that I will perform my speech (the piece I've memorized), the though backfired. I wasn't called -_- Anyways... It's still fine 'cause I am now entirely prepared when the time comes ^_^ Okay. I'm going to stop with the "speech" thing and point back to the topic... *sweatdrop* August 28, this was supposed to be the day that we, or rather, I should be post-reviewing in class. no, it's not about having reports or such; just re-checking of our exams. I was expecting it would be a very very boring day; get a pen, grab the paper, count, put the score, compute the average and done--kind of class. That would mean I'll see the horrifying results of my exams, which you guys know the meaning *winks*. Well, I was in for a surprise. The entire day took me into a detour... About 7.30 in the morning, inside my class, I was there; sitting innocently on the most spacious corner of our classroom, eagerly waiting for the contestants of our oral project called "Talumpati" or speech in English. And just right there, a notable teacher came knocking at our door. I thought it was just somebody asking for something or someone I don't know or not affiliated to.. and boy, was I surprised... My adviser lifted her hand, meaning a sign of call and I complied. By the time there was a certain distance between me and my Filipino teacher, my adviser, she told me straight to the point that I was the competitor for the upcoming contest, which was held.... Guess what? On that very SAME DAY! I was in total shock... and badtrip-ness... Why, do you ask? Okay, I'm gonna enumerate... - The teachers-in-command came rushing all the art materials to me WITHOUT explaining the mechanics first - Then one of the teachers said that the contest is not the "On-The-Spot" type. And you know what she made me do? She RUSHED me into making a poster with a size of 1/4 of the illustration board and attached with a set of oil pastel, my worst coloring buddy -_- The worst part of it is she told me to have it done on 9.00 EXACTLY with ILLUSTRATION and COLOR. And it was 8.30 am by then... Just my luck... -_- Out of my badtrip-ness, I broke their rule. I didn't do a single thing on that damn board XD They deserve it. - One of my anger-sparked reasons: My ever-so-famous principal, a personator of Pres. GMA, came along with the trip and take note, the teachers (look at the "s")  who assigned me into the competition... Not even one of them came along. Not even a word of encourage from them at all.... That's really great..... -____- To top it off, ONLY  the principal and a member of our reigstrar came along with me without even knowing a thing about this event. I was about to burst back then....... *restrains the evil trident* So now enough about them... let's go straight to the competition! XD Saint James Academy, my former school and one of the most prestigious schools known in Malabon... This was the venue!? O_O This gave me another 'shock attack' due to the fact that none of the staff ever showed me that stupid piece of paper called "mechanics" Big deal, it is. But nonetheless, being back at that school had brought me back memories... Memories that I have securely kept inside my container for, let's say, about 6 years. But I'm gonna share one thing about me and this school: Never did I set foot on the high section. Nope. Not even once.  And the funny thing is, the event was to be held on that building. Strange but for some reason, I feel agitated and anxious into the inside structures. Weird. Another thing that struck me... On that same contest, a Jamer sat just beside me, putting on the lights of the working desk and flattened out his board. Then I noticed he gleamed at me. The biggest surprise of all... It was my former schooler; my best boy bud... Christopher, or as I've known... "Tope". My eyes glued to his with entire shock.. and of course, happiness overwhelmed me. And so, along with the making of the poster, we chit-chatted all the way, and I, myself was slightly embarrassed because I didn't have enough color materials. Those materials that the teacher gave me: it was C-R-A-P-! T_T So I'm very thankful to Tope, O' Glorious one who saved me from being deprived of coloring pastels XD You're an angel! Of course, every competition has to come to an end. At roughly 2.30, just before the deadline, I was able to finish my work and share a lot of things with my friend: Of how I readjusted to my former school, of how I've improved on my art skills, of how I became the person I am right now... Dramatic, isn't it? *sticks out tongue* In the end, the judges were doing their assigned job and we, the contestants, were left blabbering with each other. ((Hey, we were just 3 participants on that event! XD)) and there came the time for me to depart and.. that's it! XD So in conclusion: It was a very hectic day. Yet enjoyable *swoons around the room* Done... ? Wait... It's not over.. This is the result! Drum roll please XD 3rd placer: My friend 2nd placer: Me 1st placer: a guy from San Jose  And to top it off, we're all Junior students. Another coincidence, I guess. So there. I'm finished :D P.S. The results are still tentative because the judges have been having a conflict about the San Jose student's work and mine. They said that I should have won if it weren't for the messy coloring (yes, screw you.. Oil pastel T_T) and I should have been entering the Regional Tournament. Nevertheless, it was fun ^_^ I'm not really a person who desires rewards... sayang yung prize money! Current Mood: and yarrr... Current Music: Ready Steady Go! - L'Arc ~en~ Ciel (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 13th, 2006
6:43 pm	Update - Lots of Stuff and a New School Year 6-12-06 Regular Routine: -Checking E-mail -Updating my music list -Downloading stuff for Photoshop -Still musing about the Icon Contest -Posting at CWF and some unusual stuff: -Finding time to draw -Covering the books -Saying good luck and goodbye to my best friend ._. -Preparing my stuff for school?! >_> So, basically, this day is my last day to enjoy my summer break. As of tomorrow, another round of school year is up in coming O.o and yes, a lot of homework and school stuff to do so I'll probably miss my good ol' days at the CWF (nonstop post.. goodbye :cries:)and welcome to my worst nightmare: Being in a Star Section O.o Yes, y'know, the class in which teachers have high expectations with..... (well, farewell, easy life ._.) Gosh... Summer's ending and me going to the next level of High School: Junior (3rd Year). Time really flies by quickly... And two years after this, I'm finally stepping onto the University!? No, this cannot be!! >_< It's just too quick... *tries to invent a time machine and thinks of a plan to slow down time* *Failed* ;_; Last note: I.HATE.SCHOOL.!.!.!.!.!.! >>>>>_<<<<< ------------------------------------------ 6-13-06 So yeah, I've survived the first day.. Thank God! Well, anyways, a lot of things happened but I don't even have the strength (or even the will) to enumerate them. Let's just say that I really hate my section for now... ;_; I'm wishing right now that I'm like an ordinary student with just the right amount of intelligence in his/her brain and acts freely with life. Why? If I'm still like right now: wondering everytime how the heck I made it to the Honors and everybody thinks that I'm a intelectual person skilled with the hands of an artist and great at computer.... How the heck can I live my life with free-dom? Take now: FREE-DOM! O.o So frustrated that the school staff placed me on the greatest section in our batch... Well, whatever the reason behind it... I'll just say one thing: I'm not happy with it. Period. T_T Screw them for filling my school life with torture and making it miserable.... *sigh* I guess ranting won't do me good either.... I'm wasting my breath Guess I have to stop here. Current Mood: blah Current Music: Kaisei Josho Hallelujah - Jindou (1 Comment |Comment on this)